lunes, 15 de noviembre de 2010

I am feeling the movements!!

Hey! I just started to feel rainbow baby moving all around!!! It is such a wonderful feeling. Before, somedays I woke up thinking if this baby was still there, alive and fine.I can now be updated by baby's moves. And yes, I am buying the heart rate machine to hear her heart rate starting in the third trimester which is still several weeks ahead. That will also help to ease my anguish, which hasn't been as bad, trust me.

I also wanted to share that we are not certain that rainbow baby is a boy, it might be a girl! What a roller coaster the gender detection has been in this pregnancy, but who cares. I actually laughed when the doctor told us that what the radiology center told me at 12 weeks ( that rainbow baby is a boy) might not be accurate. He told me to wait some weeks. I am so happy that everything so far looks so right that I actually don't care at all about the gender. We love this baby, it has been such a rainbow for all three, even for the extended family and friends, that the gender is just not even something worth to mention at all.

I don't now if I already shared with you that many friends and familiy have cried with us when I told them that we are again expecting. The tragedy and the grief have been in great part an opportunity to be loved and to feel people's support. We all thought our beautiful Inés was already with us and it was not, so many people shared our loss deeply and they are now sharing our hapiness. I have also received many many complements about my strength to keep going and to try again. I have received beautiful letters and thoughts about it, thanks to all of you.

I now have everything for her and everything for him, so no problema, we don't even need to know the gender. I am seriously thinking that we might wait until baby is born, because we don't need to buy more stuff and we don't actually need to know the gender.

I love rainbow baby and all of my three children.


1 comentario:

  1. I'm glad you've been receiving such loving support.
    Also glad to hear you can now feel movement! :) I found it comforting (of course), but also ended up worrying any time I did NOT feel movement (which is of course, as you know, also natural - you don't feel movement 100% of the time). I think the heart rate machine will be a good investment, just for your peace of mind.
    I really enjoy reading your blog posts. You sound like such a compassionate, warm, loving person - and clearly are a wonderful mother to all three of your children. Your love comes across loud and clear.